Who is Stronger?

Am I stronger than my dog, or is he stronger than I?

Yes.

We encourage each other. Today was the second of five administrations of chemotherapy.  The last two days have been full of a Roscoe full of energy, full of endurance.  Today was the same, until about an hour after chemo.  It hit him hard, I can tell.  It deflated his spunk.  Because it deflated him a little, it deflated me a little.  I recall someone on this site saying, “I’m not doing this to him.  I’m doing this for him.”

I second-guessed myself…. again.  And again, I came to the same conclusion.  I am doing this for him.  Sure, I get a bit of joy for another day with him, but his tail wags when he plays with his sister.  His face shows so much emotion.  He perks up at the word, “squirrel”, and the word “treat”.  He is alive.

Yes, I get another day and night  and morning of doggie cuddles and smootches; but I am not doing it for me.  I am certainly not doing it *to* him.  I am certainly doing it *for* him.  I would do it 100 times again, though I wouldn’t remotely hope for that opportunity.

I am elated to wrap my arms around him when he is panting, and gives a big sigh.  He is equally happy (I think) to melt me with his gaze or a couple of licks when I feel sad.  We are both strong in our own ways, and we belong together right now, for that reason.

Love you bunches, buddy.

5 thoughts on “Who is Stronger?”

  1. You’ve expressed yourself beautifully. A lovely heartfelt post. Thank you for sharing. ❤

    I love that picture of Roscoe! He looks quite happy and perfectly content with his cute self😎

    Just let the Onco know if Roscoe has too rough of a time with this second dose. Sometimes they have to reduce the amount if there is too hard of a reaction.

    Yes, you both are strong in your own ways sndnyou both belong together……………for a very long time!

    Hugs
    Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too

  2. Roscoe is definitely a heart melter!! 💖
    And he could not ask for a better pawrent! I am sorry he had a hard time with his last treatment, but I am glad that you mentioned it because Sally gave you wonderful advise. I hope he is back to his spunky adorable self today 🌺🌺🌺

  3. Roscoe is teaching you well, you are a great student! Glad to hear you are both doing pretty good overall. I hope he doesn’t have any more side effects. Keep us posted.

  4. Well Said.

    I wish you and Roscoe the best of luck!

    We had two starter doses as cookies white count was too low for the full dose We get a full dose next Friday and hope she tolerates it well

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